I started writing this blog when I first moved to London (back in 2017); my life changed considerably and I felt I was in a place where I could finally share some of my experiences of living with anxiety and depression and hopefully make just one person feel a little bit better and a little less alone.
I used to write a lot, and I really enjoyed it. I was very fortunate to be given some amazing opportunities through this blog; but the more open I became about stuff and the more people got in touch to say they resonated with my words, the worse things got. I felt more vulnerable than ever and found myself regretting having ever spoken about things.
So I stopped.
Fast forward a few years and I feel like I want to start writing again. My life has changed a lot but anxiety and depression still rear their ugly heads and I still find myself thinking “am I the only one who feels like this?”.
Michelle
You Don't Look Depressed 
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Hey there, you’re a wicked person. Lets have coffee sometime, I promise my city can be friendly at times!
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I’ve just read your story on MSN…I’m from Woolton (south Liverpool) 38 been single for over ten years, I don’t have any mental health problems but I have felt lonely now and then, it can be tough. I run a small Ventilation Install company sometimes working across England…which keeps me out of trouble most of the day. When i get home it hits me, but its ok i smoke a spliff.. just one or two… I think there is a lot of people out there taking anti depressant tablets when they could just have some weed, not to much just at night a cocktail hour if you like 🙂
Well Michelle you seem like a girl I’d like to meet for a chat, lunch, brunch, music & a cocktail… I see your from North wales not to far from where I grew up. I know what you mean about Manchester people say hello…it may be a bit grim up north sometimes, but the people are extraordinary, haha.
Well good luck Michelle, if your back up here anytime give me a shout.
t.kenny@live.co.uk
Terry
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Hi Michele
I have just seen the article on the BBC and would like to empathise with you. There are so many things you describe about how you feel that is so similar. perhaps this is a standard response by us as humans and then the flight of fight response that generates all these feelings. Not an easy thing to shake as i have been up and down with the black dog and his side kick; anxiety…for almost 4 years.. comes and goes and the drink does make it worse in my case.
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I read about this blog on a BBC news post. I would like a lot to talk with you. I like to write letters with other persons, also you could help me to practice my english. I´m from Latin America. 🙂
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Hi Michelle,
I read the article on BBC news and some of your blog, and I can relate to your feelings of loneliness. Like you, I have also felt a little bit different to others, however everyone is different in their own way and not everyone will connect with others in the same way.
Some things that help me with loneliness include exercise, learning something creative like a musical instrument or a new language. I’m currently learning piano. Being a singleton, I feel like a have a lot of free time to focus on developing myself and it can be quite rewarding when I feel I’m making some progress. I have deleted my facebook account as I feel I don’t need to focus on other people’s lives all the time, and can focus more on my hobbies instead.
Have you ever thought about some goals you wanted to achieve? Setting yourself a goal might spark some enthusiasm and motivate you to get out of bed in the morning on weekends. Once you start making some progress you may find you have a sense of purpose and will feel better about yourself.
Have you tried using meetup.com ? You may find some social groups of interest to you.
Of course we should also make an effort to spend some time with friends and family. My close friends are pretty busy with kids but I know they will make time for me if needed, they just need a bit more advance notice.
Take it easy and don’t be too hard on yourself!
Wishing you good mental health!
Nate
P.S. you might find this article interesting:
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/blogs-trending-45168200
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