I used to write about music and loved doing so, but everyone’s a music journalist these days and trying to stand out in a sea of gig reviews was nay on impossible. Whilst I still go to gigs and enjoy listening to music, I’m pretty sure the world will survive without me publically gesticulating over a new indie band’s jaunty guitars, so I’ve decided to use my love of writing for something a lot closer to home. (Update, I’m now writing about bands again, because life’s too short to resist an infectious riff and a floppy haired front man).

The last few years have seen my life shift quite considerably and I finally feel in a place where I can share some of my experiences and hopefully make just one person feel a little bit better and a little less alone.

If you haven’t guessed already (clue is ever-so-slightly in the title),  I’m living with an anxiety disorder and depression and have been for quite some time. In many ways it’s had a positive impact; allowing me to make constructive changes in my life, but of course there’s the flipside, and boy what a flipside.

I endeavour to share the worst of times and the best of times with you, but most of all I want to share hope – my hope that with challenging the ignorance surrounding mental health and having conversations we can make a difference and essentially save lives.

…but rest assured, it won’t be all woe-is-me and sadness. I like a laugh as much as the next person and anxiety can be utterly ridiculous at times and the only way to deal with it is to laugh, and I hope that we can do this together.


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  1. I’ve just read your story on MSN…I’m from Woolton (south Liverpool) 38 been single for over ten years, I don’t have any mental health problems but I have felt lonely now and then, it can be tough. I run a small Ventilation Install company sometimes working across England…which keeps me out of trouble most of the day. When i get home it hits me, but its ok i smoke a spliff.. just one or two… I think there is a lot of people out there taking anti depressant tablets when they could just have some weed, not to much just at night a cocktail hour if you like 🙂

    Well Michelle you seem like a girl I’d like to meet for a chat, lunch, brunch, music & a cocktail… I see your from North wales not to far from where I grew up. I know what you mean about Manchester people say hello…it may be a bit grim up north sometimes, but the people are extraordinary, haha.

    Well good luck Michelle, if your back up here anytime give me a shout.



  2. Hi Michele
    I have just seen the article on the BBC and would like to empathise with you. There are so many things you describe about how you feel that is so similar. perhaps this is a standard response by us as humans and then the flight of fight response that generates all these feelings. Not an easy thing to shake as i have been up and down with the black dog and his side kick; anxiety…for almost 4 years.. comes and goes and the drink does make it worse in my case.


  3. I read about this blog on a BBC news post. I would like a lot to talk with you. I like to write letters with other persons, also you could help me to practice my english. I´m from Latin America. 🙂


  4. Hi Michelle,

    I read the article on BBC news and some of your blog, and I can relate to your feelings of loneliness. Like you, I have also felt a little bit different to others, however everyone is different in their own way and not everyone will connect with others in the same way.

    Some things that help me with loneliness include exercise, learning something creative like a musical instrument or a new language. I’m currently learning piano. Being a singleton, I feel like a have a lot of free time to focus on developing myself and it can be quite rewarding when I feel I’m making some progress. I have deleted my facebook account as I feel I don’t need to focus on other people’s lives all the time, and can focus more on my hobbies instead.

    Have you ever thought about some goals you wanted to achieve? Setting yourself a goal might spark some enthusiasm and motivate you to get out of bed in the morning on weekends. Once you start making some progress you may find you have a sense of purpose and will feel better about yourself.

    Have you tried using meetup.com ? You may find some social groups of interest to you.

    Of course we should also make an effort to spend some time with friends and family. My close friends are pretty busy with kids but I know they will make time for me if needed, they just need a bit more advance notice.

    Take it easy and don’t be too hard on yourself!
    Wishing you good mental health!


    P.S. you might find this article interesting:


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